A double-heart miracle!

So, about two weeks ago, I was feeling like I wanted some concrete proof. Something I could ask for and receive and hold in my hand as a reminder of the power of The Secret. In the book there is a story of a young man who wanted the same thing and asked for a feather. He followed The Secret steps and asked the universe for a very specific looking feather. He visualized it and was grateful for it. Two days later he found it at his feet. I wanted to experience this.

I asked for a rock. I sat and got very clear on what this rock looked like. I visualized it and imagined holding it in my hand. It was grey and heart shaped and smooth and fit perfectly in the palm of my hand. I would carry it everywhere I went and it would serve as a reminder to me of the power of The Secret. If I felt doubtful, this rock would remind me that I asked for something and I got it. I could do anything and get anything. It would be proof that The Secret works. To make sure that I would know it was my rock when it showed up I asked for it to be heart shaped but also to have a heart on it. I asked for a double-heart rock.

I started to tell everyone about this double-heart rock. This was new for me. My past behaviour would have been to not tell anyone in case it didn’t happen. I now know that this is a big part of why things didn’t happen for me when I wanted them. Fear that they wouldn’t happen and not sharing it with the people in my life and the universe. I talked about it with my sisters, my parents, my friends and every time I did I visualized it and imagined holding it in my hand. I could feel the heft and smoothness of it in my palm. When I told people who weren’t quite on board with The Secret or law of attraction yet, I noticed that I felt a little sheepish but I ploughed through and told them anyways and to my surprise they all got it and shared my excitement.

A week went by with nothing happening. I noticed that I was fighting disappointment and continued visualizing my double-heart rock. I saw my chiropractor again and told her about it and then asked her a question. What now? Am I supposed to get clear, visualize, be thankful and then just let it go and not think about it again until it shows up? Or am I supposed to spend time visualizing and being thankful everyday until it shows up? She told me that by talking about it with people was focusing on it daily and to keep doing that. She then asked me to describe the rock to her and after I did she told me that she has seen man-made rocks similar to that at a shop on Granville Island and that I should go look there and see if it is there. If not maybe I will end up talking to someone about it there and they will direct me on a different path. She said it is important to be adaptable. I won’t know how it will find me or exactly how it will look.

I took what she said about being adaptable to heart but I didn’t like the idea of my double-heart rock being man-made or that I would have to buy it. I decided to go to Granville Island and check it out anyways but I never got there. It was rainy and I didn’t feel like going. That was a week ago.

On Sunday, my miracle rock came to me! It was the first sunny day since forever and I went for a patio lunch with some friends. We sat outside in the sun and laughed and ate good food and it felt good. When we left the restaurant we ended up standing in the little parking lot talking and making plans for the afternoon. We were standing in the way of a car that was backing out of a spot and so we moved over. I looked down and I was standing next to a planter full of rocks.

My eyes scanned the rocks looking for a heart shaped rock and there weren’t any. I bent down and picked one up anyway. It was oval but it felt good; smooth and cool and just the right size. I closed my eyes for a second and pretended it was my rock. I bent back down and placed it back in the planter and another rock caught my eye. This rock was heart shaped. It wasn’t my double-heart though. It was the right size and smooth and great but not my rock. It was damp and cold and I dried it off with my sleeve and went to throw it back into the planter. It wasn’t my rock but it was close. I was getting close. I decided to hold on to it.

I put it in my pocket and turned back to my friends who had been deep in conversation and hadn’t paid any attention to me picking up rocks. As we walked away, I turned to my friend and showed him the rock. He knew about my search for the double-heart rock and was impressed at how close this one was to it. He agreed with me that I was getting close. We met up with our friends and played bocce in the woods and saw a great bald eagle eating a fish. It was a really good day.

I left my friends, ran some errands and called my sisters. They were together, sitting on LT’s patio and I went over to join them. I had forgotten about the rock until then and I pulled it out of my pocket to show my sisters. As I told them where I found it I was holding it in my palm. It was warm from being in my pocket. I looked down at it before handing it to ST and in the center of the rock was a tiny heart-shaped discolouration.

It turned out to be my miracle rock after all.

Here is my double heart miracle

Here is my double-heart rock! I took a picture of it so I could show you all. You can kind of make out the heart in the center of the rock. It is light grey and a little sideways.

Why I feel so great!

A couple of weeks ago I wrote that I am really, really happy right now and then I left you all hanging wondering why.

About a month ago I got the book The Secret. I had it in my possession for about a week before even cracking it open. Right away I loved it. This whole idea of the power of thoughts and feelings and words made instant sense to me. The odd part is that after reading the first chapter all I could think of were negative thoughts. My brain was full of weird negativity that seemed to me to come from nowhere. I felt awful and I stopped reading the book.

I woke up a couple days later and my body was in physical pain all over. My back hurt, my knees were sore, I felt stiff and achy, I felt sick to my stomach, my chest felt heavy and it was hard to breathe. I went out with my mom that day. Actually that was the day that I bought all the tea at the Bayswater Tea Co. I tried to get in to see my chiropractor but she was booked solid so I had to wait until the next morning. I took it easy that day and found that if I ignored it and kept busy then I didn’t notice it as much. So that’s what I did.

I woke up Wednesday morning feeling a little better but with the same symptoms; achy, stiff, sick, sore, heavy. My appointment with my chiropractor was early so I got in right away and explained my situation to her. I told her about starting to read The Secret and then being bombarded with negative thoughts. I explained that I was trying to do the right thing and just notice the negative thoughts without holding on to them. But it was a struggle for me.

She listened to me and felt my back and shoulder and hips. She had me lie down and started adjusting me all over. She explained that what was happening to me was actually quite crucial. Feeling sick to my stomach was related to my gut (instincts, feelings, intentions) and that feeling heavy in my chest is related to my heart (emotions, love, acceptance). She told me that I was on the verge of a huge transformation and that I was changing at a cellular level. I was breaking away from old patterns and creating new ones. She told me to keep reading The Secret. My new homework was to read it a second time once I finished it.

I have learned over time that being adjusted doesn’t mean instant relief. It definitely starts to feel better right away but it can take a day or two to feel wholly good again. Leaving her office, I felt sore but the nausea and chest heaviness were gone and I felt excited.

It was another day or two before I picked up The Secret again and by that time my body was back to feeling good. I read and read and read. I loved it! I couldn’t read it fast enough. I wanted to absorb The Secret. It made sense to me. I understood that what I was reading was fact and decided there and then that if this was going to work for me (and how could it not if it’s a fact) I had to give it my complete and utter faith. So I did.

I woke up the next morning elated. I felt so good. Happy and excited and healthy and free. I started creating goals and planning my future and it was fun. I sat and visualized things that I wanted. I created a vision board. I drew happy pictures of myself. I wrote out happy thoughts and beliefs. When people ask me how I am I say fantastic, wonderful, never better, great and then I laugh because it feels so good to say.

And because it’s true.

Dreamgirls

I am a movie fanatic. I love movies. Last night st and I went to see Dreamgirls. It took us long enough since I wanted to see it when it came out, but with all the Oscar hype my desire to see it diminished daily. It finally came down to my mom, who had seen it and loved it, forcing my sister and I to go see it. I say forcing but it was far more gentle than that. She handed me 40 bucks and said "Here, I'll even pay for you to see it and get snacks too! Just go!" So we went.

Immediately I was hooked. I should insert here that while I love movies, I love musical movies even more! There isn't a musical that I prolly wouldn't get some enjoyment out of. I find that disclosing this information about myself, somehow diminishes my authority on recommending good movies to people. You lose a lot of movie cred if people know you LOVE musicals. Ah well, so be it.

Back to Dreamgirls. There is a scene mid movie with Jennifer Hudson belting out her heart and my entire body erupted into goose bumps. Chills. Complete chills. For the rest of the movie, everytime JH sang I got goose bumps. I even got them at one point when they introduced her onto the stage, just in anticipation of her singing. It was incredible.

Then of course, ST and I sang any line we could remember from the songs on the drive home. We are going to memorize and practice singing Effie's big dramatic song so that we can perform it all the time, anywhere we go - (beware JM, you know I'll be singing this one around you - especially if we watch Pitch Black again, which we won't!!).

I really liked this movie. Eddie Murphy was great. Beyonce was great. Jamie Foxx pissed me off - but he was supposed to. I have a new crush on Keith Robinson who has the best smile ever. Plus, I had a fun night out with my sister. So, thanks mom for getting us there!

More Tea! I'm addicted!

I went to the Bayswater Tea Co. again yesterday and bought more tea. I have been drinking rooibos every night and all of my rooibos options are fruity. I wanted something a little different for those nights when I just don't feel fruity. My mom had mentioned drinking a really nice lavender rooibos at a spa recently and I thought I'd like to try that. I walked into the shop with the intention of buying myself and my mom the lavender rooibos and then walking out. I should've known better.

I walked out with 4 new teas for myself.
Cloud 9 - lavender rooibos, smells like lavender and raspberries
Latte Macchiato - a coffee substitute, a rooibos with whole coffee beans that don't give off any caffeine
Toffee Ole - a dessert, toffee-flavoured rooibos
Cream Spice Swirl - I had this one last night with an oat fudge bar from Starbucks and it was the perfect combination. It is a spicy, caramelly smooth rooibos - delicious!

They also had an orange chocolate rooibos and mint chocolate that smelled wonderful. I am saving those for my next visit.

I have also figured out that all rooibos teas are excellent with milk.

I am seriously addicted.

My life is really, really great right now

More to come on this. I had a few spare minutes before going out and wanted to let the world know that I am so happy and grateful for all I have.
Thank you!