Monday, 23 November 2009

5 things

1)I am learning to type and while frustrated at my lack of speed and accuracy, I am addicted to practicing. I only hope that means that at some point my muscle memory will kick in and my fingers will be able to find 'i', 'c', 'x' , 'b', and 'p' all on their own without me having to really think about it.

2)I have one more paper to write for my English class and then my final exam which is an in-class essay. I had no idea when I started this semester just how much I was going to enjoy being back in school. The course I took was essay writing and short prose selection. Basically we read short stories, analyzed them and then wrote critical essays about them. I loved it so much more than I expected to.

3)I am picking out my courses for next semester (jumping from one to three if I can get a student loan) and it is really fun and exciting to plan out the things I want to learn. When I got my diploma at Douglas 7 years ago, I was in a closed program. I didn't get to pick a single class to take - it was all set out for me. Now, the options are endless and exciting - English, Art History, Psychology, Sociology, Women's Studies, Religious Studies, Anthropology - it goes on and on and on. I have it narrowed down to three but I'll save disclosing them for another post.

4)I saw Where the Wild Things Are and I keep thinking about it. I am finding it to be one of those movies that has had a slow and lasting impact on me. While watching it, there were parts I absolutely LOVED. There were also parts that I felt pretty 'meh' about. Yes, it was melancholy (I think every review I have seen of WTWTA has that word in it) but it did not make me feel any real sense of nostalgia or sadness. It gets a solid 8.5/10 from me but mostly because of what meaning I gave it. If I had watched this movie at face value I think I would have enjoyed it less. My English course has gotten my brain thinking in analytical terms and it is through that perspective that Where The Wild Things Are goes from being an alright movie to a really good movie for me.

5)I have to get to class now! See ya

Monday, 9 November 2009

Dang cold.

Ohhh my aching head. I have a cold. And while I am grateful that it's just a cold and not the dreaded swine flu, I am still going to complain that I feel downright crummy! I have gone downhill in the past hour to the point now, of wishing I was at home, in bed and being taken care of by my mom. She'd make me tea and toast with cinnamon-sugar cut up into perfect quarters. She'd fawn over me and make me feel important and taken care of. I may be a grown woman but whenever I get sick, I want my mommy.

Monday, 2 November 2009

Bowl of cherries, box of chocolates, lemons into lemonade...why are there so many life metaphors about food?

Ok, so, life is hard. We all know that. I am having one of those days today. Yesterday was also one of those days so I am really hoping it doesn't mean that this is one of those weeks. I am a big believer that life is what you make it. You can make it good or you can make it crappy. I am a fan of making it good. But some days that feels a lot harder to do than other days. I am not giving up on today, it may turn around. If it isn't going to get better then I can work on my attitude because as Abraham Lincoln once said "most people are only as happy as they make up their minds to be".

One of the things weighing on my mind today is that I am feeling like I haven't done much with this life I've been given. I want to make a difference. I want to leave something behind. I want to effect change in this world. I want to inspire others to be the best they can be. The best way I know how to do this is to live my best life and hope that it touches and inspires others to do the same. The catch right now is that I don't feel like I am living my best life. How can I inspire others when I myself am uninspired?
I guess the sheer fact that I am writing this means that I am not uninspired...just maybe feeling blue about not doing much with my inspiration. I have ideas, but they stay ideas. I need to make them real. They aren't doing any good sitting in my head.